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So, yes, my computer died on me again and i have been extremely depressed since then but good things happened too;

I got accepted to a university with full scholarship, moving to a new city(which i've been aiming since, like, forever) and found myself a place to stay.

Also as you have no doubt noticed, i started spn art not a while ago(back when my pc was still alive and we were happy) that doesn't mean i have completely given up on ME.




I just feel extremely content with my life and wanted to thank you people all for supporting my art and/or commenting and doing stuff you do... thank you

My most sincere apologies people, i know you've waited for the past couple of pages of the work "Before the Suicide Mission", like, forever.

I have many excuses (like how my pc dumped me and how it took me forever to get over him and just when i thought i was, he waltzed back into my life like nothing happened)
but most importantly, university appliance (or something like that, education systems are unfortunately not universal) exams came up. I took a fairly acceptable result from the first stage but now the aptitude tests' dates are approaching and as much as i'm looking forward to graduating from high school and taking my brand new adult steps into the responsible life of university environment(!), i need to, actually, get accepted to a university first.
Which seems highly unlikely at the moment, but hey, i'm still drawing sex comics and gay porn as usual, with a little bit luck they might boost my drawing skills for aptitude tests.
I'm not quite sure how that system works but some universities say that they'll only accept portfolios from online blogs -such as this- so i'll be giving my DA,

behave everyone, this is very important thing for my educational thus future life etc etc

_{sometimes i think i'm porning my life away =___=}

Hi people,

my "vacation" took longer than i expected and i really appreciate your patience and now i'm back. THARR BE ART!!

_{irrelevant interrupt: if you watched donnie darko and liked it, don't watch s. darko}

An'wayz, i'll take a little time here to explain you a little about schzelle shep (aka the black haired chick banging tali) so that you won't freak out when i submit the rest of the Before The Suicide Mission series.

She is full-renegade, not good with sentimental stuff, a bit forceful, compelling. She also has an eating disorder, she's "blessed" with photographic memory, she smokes and she has anger management issues. Besides that, she's perfect
Don't freak out tho', she won't do anything to tali, she'll be "gentle" . It's just her reactions may confuse you.

thank you for taking time to read it you can ask things and i'll answer to the best of my abilities.

HACKETT OUT

hi people, the extended cut dlc came out a few days ago, i didn't personally had a chance to experience it however i watched helluva vids since it came up.

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i liked how they gave you a chance to experience a few more moments with your LI and that touchy scene where they put your name up and stuff, i have some(!) conclusions however;

Destroy

it was always known for the most renegade ending, not because of it's color, because of its outcome which the dlc didn't very much change. thousand of species will starve to death while few salarians try to figure how to bend space magic to build mass relays. and lets keep in mind that mass relays work both ways, they dont just throw you to some direction billions light years away casually, they throw you to other working relays direction. so lets say they somehow figured how to fix the sole relay, the other relays won't magically fix themselves. how will krogans get home, i can't imagine krogans fixing tuchanka relay. in the best scenario salarians and quarian will be the only species that will ever see home.

Control

it currently seems to me like the most logical option but it a little bothers me how it appears to be alittle too much organic dominant. i always figured synthetics can develop, lets say, emotions. (i am materialist so the concept of emotion, or soul existing separate from the body is not my thing) you are using a species which infinity times wiser and older than you as slaves. i, from the very beginning of the series, always thought it is possible to reason with them if given the chance. it is understandable why they harvest organics because thats how they breed. which is the most organic instinct, the main reason of an organic life span. think, if they feel need to breed, to reproduce, they must also crave for life, which can also mean that they are at some point, mortal. not their knowledge but their bodies. so what will happen when the last reaper dies out, perhaps millennias later, will software shepard harvest a few species to keep his/her mega army, i think not, all their powers and knowledge will vanish with them.

Synthesis

doesnt makes any sense. the game already agreed that synthetics can have, what we call, emotions. i dont think it is too hard for an organic to access to the data in a synthetic either. process of evolution already forces an enhanced technology to the features of an organic. and an organic mind is capable of understanding, not computing, infinitive knowledge. i dont understand the reason of having glowing green eyes in this concept. if it is the "peace" option, if peace is possible, if organics are willing to forgive reapers for what they have done; i would rather a simpler peace where synthetics and organics simply live in harmony. where organics discover how to produce reapers without the necessary need of usage of organic life or something like that.

Refusal

let someoneelse deal with this, i'm too old for this shit! option.



Soooo... tell me what you also think!


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"Homophobia" is a word i've been hearing and using a lot in my everyday life, it is to describe someone who doesn't favor homosexual relationships.

Well actually it's not. Lets take a look;

homo-phobia

homo comes from latin homos which means "same", its used in many majors including chemistry (ie homogeneous catalysis)
phobia comes from latin phobos meaning "fear", we already know what a phobia is but here is it's psychological definition; an abnormal intense and irrational fear of a given situation, organism, or object

the common symptoms of any phobia is;

Terror: A persistent and overwhelming fear of the object or situation.

Physical Symptoms: Difficulty breathing, Racing or pounding heart, Chest pain or tightness, Trembling or shaking, Feeling dizzy or lightheaded, A churning stomach,  Hot or cold flashes; tingling sensations, Sweating

Obsessive Thoughts: Difficulty thinking about anything other than the fear.

Desire to Flee: An intense instinct to leave the situation.

Anticipatory Anxiety: Persistent worrying about upcoming events that involve the phobic object or situation.


so i've yet to met any homophobe who shows these symptoms in the presence of a homosexual, i have friends who says that they are homophobes and they really feel uncomfortably in the presence of a homosexual; these people go to the same school as me, share my desk, my notes, we even use the same changing room before P.E, they don't seem uncomfortable at all,(and they know my orientation, they claim i'm "different") they talk to me about their every-day problems, the size of their boobs, their new bras, their periods. which leaves us in the conclusion,

homophobia is not an illness. it is not actually a phobia. phobias are psychological sicknesses that highly requires treatment, but homophobia is just a term created to describe people who despise homosexual peoples because of various reasons they are so content with themselves. to justify their hate.

you will never hear "naziphobia" or "imperialistphobia" because people don't need an excuse to hate them, because people are content with the reason they hate them.
but somehow they are not with the reason they hate homosexuals, homophobia is their excuse, their justification to their own conscience to explain this rage.

They disgust me. they can't even come clean with their own beliefs and emotions that they decorate it with a psychological term.



thank you for reading

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